through the eyes of myself I see my life becoming nothing

an empty nest of forgetful bird

sparrow picking at my loose ends

leaving behind no eggs for the snakes

the empty home that no one wants

seen screaming but not heard

senile but never forgetting

eventually remembered because it is not seen again

After a long period of silence I have made a decision

I am going to stay in California. There is one main reason for this and its a doozy

I devon young......... am getting a job at....













.......SQAURE-ENIX AS A GAME TESTER


Bitches do you understand what that means!?!?!?


they are going to pay me to sit on my ass and play video games that others won't touch for months!!!!!!! Final Fantasy XII bitches?!?!?!?!

Does anyone watch moral oral? that show is seriously fucked up. I mean I laugh at sum fucked up shit but that shit is too fucked up and I laughed at piles of dead babies.

well it has been a while. and things are really really ...um crazy..... a lot has happened and I have changed alot. I recently went to one of those change your life semenars......and I can say that It has changed me...... I cried.. in the arms of a man..... I cried into a chair I didn't jerk it for like 9 days..... and I read I's. and to anyone who hasn't read it Mush just a lot of echi Mush but a very good mush.

nuff said

ohh and I took a test and here are my results

You Have Low Self Esteem 92% of the Time
You're definitely in a low place right now, but you also know deep down that you can get out of your funk.
Take a chance and make a new friend or try a new interest. Shaking things up will give you the self-esteem boost you need!

I suppose I should start with the small things. ummmm.... Malcom in the Middle just had the series finally. this is something I am just bringing up because the show has been on for a while and while I haven't seen every episode(just most) it was a very good show and I am just showing my respect for a good show being sent off air. *sniff* *sniff*

they finally showed sasuke in the naruto manga and it looks like hell is going to break out. and I just realized that the filler episodes started almost a full 5 months ago.... thats right a full season of filler. and as well it has been more than that since we last saw sasuke.

umm what else... went to the end of E3. they beefed up the security so you couldn't sneak into the actual game room just the lobby...... but i did get to see morgan web and adam sesler.


hmm any thing else..... ohh yeah I told my aunt I am failing and it would be a waste of time for me to continue to go to college and long story short I should be back home in about a week....

in case anyone has noticed I havent' been writting on my lj for a while now and that is because my computer broke.........a couple weeks and 50 bucks later it works again......and that 50 was going toward lesbian porn....ugh...........but yeah some crazy shit has occured since my computer broke.......... jerkin it suxord ... yeah I mean I never particularly enjoyed it before but the pornography I OWN is bad...yeah I said it.... I was doing it like once or twice a week..... but then it was fixord and I did it 5 time .... Hellz yeah 5 TIMES IN ONE DAY boyakashaka and I may not be done yet cause i just downloaded a new hentai game and a hentai movie a bout subway molestation (major fetish of mine)


oh and on a side not I think Im going to confront my aunt and come home because this semester has been a total academic flop (I haven't gone to any classes in 3 weeks)

its 237 am and at 200pm I have a 3 page report due that I havent even started and don't inted to start until maybe 700am. but that doesnt matter. my sex drive has gone of the wall to the point were I wake up craving the soft feel of a womans breast or the warm (and I don't know any other way to put it) nervana-ish feeling of a womans .... area..........but that doesn't matter (mostly because I won't get any for a long time to cum). no no Im here to talk about kingdom hearts II... yeah.. it matters. If you don't have it.... your a dumb ass and need to reprioritize(ive got no life), if you didn't get the last one..... get off, just get off, you have no appreasiation fo the finer things in life and need to jump off a bridge or something. if you haven't beaten the game do so quickly as it ...... AMAZING.... no really the ending is pretty awe inspiring. much like the last game at the end of this game it would seem like for the most part a happy ending where the world is at peace and all the loose ends seem well done........ then comes the secret ending. if your on proud mode just unlock every world (the key holes by the name of where you are in the gummi ship should be lite up) then beat the game. if your on standard mode.... start a new game in proud mode.....itll serouisly take less time. but just like the last secret ending you will have so many questions your ass will eventually explode. no, for rizzle if your balls were what you know of the kingdom hearts world now then it will kick you in the balls till you can no longer procreat and you grow very large quadruple D tits... and if you must know my balls are so much bigger than a normal persons I could survive something of that nature... but I still shed a tear at its beauty....